Hate That I Still Think About You

I've been looking for you everywhere I go
Ever since you left me at my worst
I dreamt that you came back to me and left me a note
To say that you're sorry
No, baby it's not entirely your fault

Take us back to that fancy restaurant
The night you were singing a Bee Gees song
We should've been friends and nothing more
But damn, I fell in love
That day with my family at a quaint cafe
Was head over heels when you came and stayed
I gave you my heart though I knew someday
I'd have to watch it break

Now I hate that I still think about you and the good times
Just to forget what went wrong, trying to make it right
And I hate that I can't unlove you
Can't erase you from my mind
But I'll have to try

I've been waiting for you to put us on the throne
But you don't want us to be seen so I rule the world alone
Lately, I just don't care where we're gonna go from here
The love we made is broken but the pieces won't disappear

Like the night we were singing on the rooftop
And you held at my hand at The Swimming Club
We talked for hours over late dinner
Why did we stop?
Tried to hold on to you and not let go
But you said you don't want me at your shows
Cause you needed space and I walked away
That's the day that my heart broke

Now I hate that I still think about you and the good times
Just to forget what went wrong, trying to make it right
And I hate that I can't unlove you
Can't erase you from my mind
But I'll have to try

I painted a picture of us from the best night
Kept replaying the scene from our worst fight
My mistake for being tactless
But you were heartless for playing the gaslight
I packed my memories of you in a suitcase
I threw it into the ocean
And I burned the pages of the love we made
Let it be gone and lost and long-forgotten
I just hate that I still sing about you

I hate that I still think about you and the good times
Just to forget what went wrong, I can't make it right
And I still find it hard to believe that a man could love me
Cause my dad never did
But you carried my issues, my crybaby tears
Saw the devil in me and you dealt with it
I hate that I've to say goodbye