Float
Done with this shit
It's a weight on a chest that won't let up, it's like you've ran out of luck
Thrown off a boat with a ball and chain tied to your ankle sinking to the bottom
Thankful for everything you had and wish you done
But there's no time left for you the past was fun but it's all done nothing left to see
I cry a sea of tears that could drown a town
Try to turn this frown upside down, I try to push myself up but no luck
I'm stuck, stuck in a rut again
Thoughts rush about my life
About the wife I will never have and about the times
I was glad but it's all just sadness from now on
All sadness from now on
Floods the brain
Makes me think I'm going insane
Can't move can't talk can't walk shit sucks but it's nothing out of the ordinary
It's fairly normal actually drowning in the fear of would could be rather than what's likely
Scared you don't mean shit to no one
And you bring anyone down with you a ton because
I'm not a fun person I just worsen every situation
And will never change it because I lack the sensation of warmth and kindness
Even if I want to see no less than all the people I love succeed
Fly high above the sea I'm drowning in, win and tower above me
Like a lighthouse on a hill my cheers the waves crashing into the mountain side
I tried that shit one time but I don't think I'm cut out for it
Just gonna put Earl on repeat and dip
A familiar sound comes from the shoreline
It's my friends, they wanna have a good time
Wanna go to the club and get fucked up on a Friday night it's like a bright light
A sign, signally in the boats to safety to take me to a better place to help in this fight
I try to swim to shore line the bright light guides me praying
It will save me for at least a minute
I think I reached my limit though
The ball and chain to heavy for me things have started to go steady
But I'm not ready yet so
My body is pulled under
Away from all the rain and thunder
Throw my phone across my room and stay under the covers
Never gonna get up hoping I can recover
Either way I don't like to drink when I'm in this state makes my mind suicidal
The weight of that thought scares me
So I stay idle in my place away from all the bright lights and people
Life is not a race so I take my time hoping it I break this evil
Hoping I can stay a float
Hoping a boat saves me and gives me directions, a purpose or some corrections
Till then, I'm drowning man
I hope I left something and you think of me at my best
Or at least more than nothing