Can't Make It!!!

Dear Father forgive me for I don't think that imma make it
My life is going out of control and I might just take it
Self sabotaging all the blessings that you done given
And I call myself a christian
Man who am I kidding
It's a transparent approach God, you see right through me
I here you love me and you hold me, then just say it too me
I'm crippled nowadays cause it reads walk by faith
Not by sight but all I see is my stagnant phase
Ain't nothing moving, nothing changing yet I lift my hands
While all these other faithless people out here making bands
It expands over other regions of my life
I fight demons to get an angel to call my wife
But despite all my fights with my inner self
I see images online that hurt my health
It was my choice to call You to fight my battles
But the side of me I hate begins to unravel
Nah I can't make it
I wish that I was faking
But sadly it's real
And I don't think that I can deal
Nah I can't make it
I wish that I was faking
But sadly it's real
And i don't think that i can deal
Father forgive me for I don't think that Imma make it
My life is going out of control and I might just take it
I try to escape it, but the dark is all I see
It's odd to see I ended up right here in my odyssey
Yeah, and it ain't no ones fault except my own
In this zone every time I step outside my home
False confidence and positivity are thrown
In your face so you can't see my face, It's rather long
I am living proof that you can hold yourself hostage
Tried to unlock the chains but I'm to weak for the bondage
But the irony is I done locked myself
If I knew where the key was I'd unlock myself
As I sit in my cell i talk quietly
To me, myself and I, and how violently we've
Been acting lately
And how many rules that we've been breaking
And how all the consequences just don't seem to phase me
Nah I can't make it
I wish that I was faking
But sadly it's real
And I don't think that I can deal
Nah I can't make it
I wish that I was faking
But sadly It's real
And I don't think that I can deal