Make It Out

I’ve been falling down
But i will never wish that on you now
Who will catch me now
When the curtains close
And the venues emptied out
No cameras now , where’s the lights at the end of the tunnel, if they turned them out
Im falling down
But I’m the only one that can help me now
But I’m the only one that can help me now
But I’m the only one that can help me now
What’s it called when you’re surrounded by people that care
But the room feels like it’s dark , and I don’t feel anyone there
My skin starts crawling , and then all of these goosebumps appear
Chest feels heavy , I can’t breathe , I go look myself in the mirror
Nothing in the reflection
I guess it’s my perspective
I’m just insecure or something
Or maybe I lost connection
Yeah maybe I’m disconnected
With finding out who I am
And who they are wanting me to be
I guess I’m scared of rejection
I just want to feel apart of something
But I feel like I am nothing
Guess that still means feeling something
I didnt know the me that I was becoming
Wanted to fit in till I did plummet
Had to get rid , of the pit , that’s in my stomach
I’d rather be trapped in a bunker
I’d rather be 6 feet under
Than to be in my thoughts no slumber
Anxiety kicks in and I take cover
Been distant since I was a misfit
Still am , that’s only way I grip shit
Depression stays persistent
Wish I could leave existence
my head keeps telling me things
Like I’m not worth shit , I should love all the pain
I should stop working , take a knife to the veins
Close all the curtains no one cares anyways
But I can’t run away , these demons stay close
They don’t want me to change
Maybe I’ll go ghost , I’m already Insane
Throw up an old rope , jump watch how I sway
Ohhh
I’ve been falling down
But i will never wish that on you now
Who will catch me now
When the curtains close
And the venues emptied out
No cameras now , where’s the lights at the end of the tunnel, if they turned them out
Im falling down
But I’m the only one that can help me now
But I’m the only one that can help me now
But I’m the only one that can help me now