Death Wish

Hook:
How can i walk this earth alive but feel that I am stuck in hell,
How can i be completely sane but feel entranced in a tragic spell,
How can I cope with all the lies , can I drown away my pain,
How can i put an end to this perpetually relentless rain,
Please,
Lord please give me a way out,
Why can’t i have a shoulder to lean on, why can’t i bring this change about,
A shadow of a man, i toss & turn but they just ignore my shout, i guess i amount to nothing , maybe i should just take a different route

Verse 1:
My efforts weren’t being reciprocated so i left all those nobodies in the past,
Is it a sin to want to love someone so bad your first name becomes their last?
I hate this age i was born into, i hate this time of kissing ass, the irony of it all takes my breath away so i can’t spare a gasp,
Lifeless,
I’m a corpse amongst the living,
As if I’m repenting for past sins, what happened to redeeming my misgivings,
Winning,
A concept more absentee than my father,
I want to ask for help but i hate being perceived as a bother,
My past self is extinguished, a moth to the flame to be slaughtered, i want to save all of my empathies but I’m tired of being the martyr,
I’m tired of being unthought of,
I’m tired of hearing “you oughta”
I’m tired of being the fall back option instead of being the starter,

Man fr i swear i been sinning, I’ve been living, I’ve been shivering, I’ve been triggering, just belittling, just so crippling how they see me, all i want is some company, all i want is someone to love me, to say I’m numb is an understatement I’m used solely for my money,

Hook:
How can i walk this earth alive but feel that I am stuck in hell,
How can i be completely sane but feel entranced in a tragic spell,
How can I cope with all the lies , can I drown away my pain,
How can i put an end to this perpetually relentless rain,
Please,
Lord please give me a way out,
Why can’t i have a shoulder to lean on, why can’t i bring this change about,
A shadow of a man, i toss & turn but they just ignore my shout, i guess i amount to nothing , maybe i should just take a different route

Verse 2:
Heartless, Dauntless, wannabe cartels, passion, disguised by pain so heartfelt,
I want to be the best but I’m staggered so much,
I wanna marry a girl but they recoil at my touch,
She said she loved, she said she tried but she lied ong i should’ve called her bluff,
Like J. lo , I’ve been pushed to the edge, I’m at my breaking point I’ve had enough,
I’m done, shunned, a life of red rum, they say be happy but happiness hasn’t begun,
They get a kick out of it, it must be fun,
They up & abandon me, they up & run,
I’d say my future’s bright but it’s always masked by their uncaring sun,
I’m a shadow of a man, I’m surprised to my head i haven’t put a gun