Pain

What the hell you know about pain?
You ever had your hopes washed down that drain?
You ever had your ex tarnish your name?
Emotional swerving, hydroplane ,
I don’t know how to feel, should i remain,
Suicidal thoughts are all i sustain,
Like a bad climax, i regret i came,
So cordial & kind, but I’m given the blame,
Man this is my life, this shit ain’t a game,
I been thinking bout a lot,
I been thinking bout the fame,
I been thinking bout the top, cause i want that spot, will i get my shot, or is this in vain,
They just betray me for personal gain,
There’s a reason salt & sugar look the same,
Devoid of emotion, my face is so plain,
I stg you don’t know about real pain mf,

A-ring-a-ding-ding, am i expecting a call?
It’s my disappearing act of a father, goddamn he got some gall,
Social security must’ve hit the bank, wanting to take my little sisters to the mall, where was this effort when you were beating on my mother, it’s a shame that now you give your all, these small acts of remorse won’t reverse your downfall, man I’m done - no longer enthralled, next subject,
Puppet to the master, this life is a disaster, I’m always the kiss-asser, the slave - never massa’, why can’t i read past this recurring chapter,
Thereafter,
I was promised the best, i was promised a girl but she quizzed me on lies & deceit, i guess i failed that test,
I guess i shouldn’t expect any less,
It seems I’m only capable of stress,

I’m sick & tired of being sick & tired,
I have no desire to be better or try ,
Where’s that fire that i had in my eyes, it’s been replaced with tears, the overwhelming urge to cry,
The overwhelming urge to die,
Speechless, dead inside, forever tongue tied,
I wish i could go to sleep forever & be blind, maybe then pain won’t cross my mind,

What the hell you know about pain?
You ever had your hopes washed down that drain?
You ever had your ex tarnish your name?
Emotional swerving, hydroplane ,
I don’t know how to feel, should i remain,
Suicidal thoughts are all i sustain,
Like a bad climax, i regret i came,
So cordial & kind, but I’m given the blame,
Man this is my life, this shit ain’t a game,
I been thinking bout a lot,
I been thinking bout the fame,
I been thinking bout the top, cause i want that spot, will i get my shot, or is this in vain,
They just betray me for personal gain,
There’s a reason salt & sugar look the same,
Devoid of emotion, my face is so plain,
I stg you don’t know about real pain mf,

I wrecked my car in Charlotte, driving to see a harlot, then the b**** burned me exposing my scarlet,
A blessing in disguise, f*** a compromise, i got a brand new whip as a heartbreak prize,
You ever had thoughts of burying your best friend,
Cancer ravaged her health, thousands of dollars she’d spend,
The petty fights & the mights, i hope we make amends,
I wouldn’t be able to live if she came to an end,
You ever went broke then had a date the next day?
You ever dreaded an encounter cause there was nothing left to say,
I ask for help but no one ever wants to come here,
I’m outcasted, I’m viewed as if I’m weird,
I get so attached why can’t i just disappear,
Perspective’s clouded, why’s it never clear,
I’d say I’m hopeful but i have so much to fear,
You can’t understand my pain but now you have an idea