Reminisce

Look me dead in my eyes,
Reflect on all of the times,
No more nickels, we got dimes,
No more nursery rhymes,
No more trying to be kind,
Got my heart in a bind,
A lot of shit is on my mind,

…
But were you there,
Were you going to make an effort to make your feelings clear,
Were you gonna show up in my time of need to help face me fear,
What i say never resonates, it goes on its way then stops halfway at your ear,
I guess it’s hard for you to hear,
Guess this isn’t clear,
Said you’d be here forever, then you went & f’ing disappeared,
Ghosted,
Without a trace,
I guess he surely took my place,
I guess the fact that we’re different is why you stand to see his face,
Should I be surprised?
No, but surprise is what triggers that emotion that makes it hard for me to cope,

Just

Disappointment,
That need to be anointed,
Knowing that as your man i surely have been appointed,
But you f’ing lied,
Took a glimpse to the side, you were the ride to my die now all I wanna do is look back & cry,
I’m tongue-tied,
Reiteration,
I need motivation,
Need divine-intervention to fix my taste in these women,
I’m sinnin’,
Going out sad, it’s giving,
I don’t like the way that I’m living,
Do me wrong, but then have the nerve to think all is forgiven,
It’s not
…
Now roles reverse,
Im thrown to the wayside as i lay in my hearse,
Damn nation on earth,
An everlasting curse,
Despair,
We’re single strands of damaged hair,
Im the gum on the pavement for your foot to step in to make your presence there,
Like Do you even care?
It was never a problem that you received all the stares,
Craving your approval only to have it sat down on & crushed like chair,
Got me mushing, got me gushing,
Pouring out my whole heart,
Why is it that my pain raises my status on the charts,
Were you unhappy from the start,
Why did you let it go this far?
Why keep your feelings in the dark,
I’m the blood to your shark,
I guess my senses aren’t that sharp,
Yeah
…
Look me dead in my eyes,
Reflect on all of the times,
No more nickels, we got dimes,
No more nursery rhymes,
No more trying to be kind,
Got my heart in a bind,
A lot of shit is on my mind,
…
But I’m the one trippin?
But I’m the one sippin’?
But I’m the one wrong thinking that you aren’t forgiving,
…
I just knew something was missing,
I just knew that you were dissing,
I just knew that you were kissing,
On other guys then looked me dead in my eyes & lied,
Said you weren’t going outside,
Then I came out, saw the car was parked & knew you had something to hide,
Can’t say I was surprised,
Cause I surely surmised,
That you broke up our bond right before my very eyes ,
A compromise?
Suggesting that is like a shred of hope posing as a lie,
Thought we were do or die,
Now we’re traumatized,
…
Your loss,
I make moves I’m a boss,
My perfect teeth resemble my spirit so there’s no need for me to floss,
Dont give that coin of love a toss,
That shit has let me down,
Time & again,
The heartbreak just never ends,
Let’s sit here & play let’s pretend,
…
Look me dead in my eyes,
Reflect on all of the times,
No more nickels, we got dimes,
No more nursery rhymes,
No more trying to be kind,
Got my heart in a bind,
A lot of shit is on my mind,
…
But can I get it off?
Can I give a message without coming off to soft,
Fuck that,
I don’t refrain from my pain,
There ain’t no shame in my game,
I try to stay in my lane,
I try to remain the same,
Last time I checked I’m human,
Since when is weakness a sin,
This just in,
People everywhere need to give that balloon of caring a pin,
Just let it go pop,
When will the infidelity stop,
When will all the emotions drop,
Tears wiped away with judgements disguised as a mop,
I’m not material,
I’m not imperial,
But it would be nice to be treated like a king,
It would be nice to give a gorgeous girl a ring,
If only that fantasy really were a mf thing,
Yeah