DARK NIGHT IN THA 919

[Hook]
I got blood up on my sheets, I been cryin' all day
Eyes dry, fuckin' red, I can't even see straight
I hadn't got high for about 7 months
But, the fake shit, it got to me that no one gives a fuck
Feelin' desolate and out to dry, ultimately dead inside
Brain is fucked, a scrambled mind since you were only over 5
Just by a couple months, now I guess it's all fucked
Went down a dark road, dark night, and it's fuckin' rough

[Verse 1]
You wanna know the truth? I got no friends up in this fuckin' life
This is me talkin', fuck the SLUM name, fuck the bullshit 919
It's a façade, a damn mirage, I ain't no killer, bruh, you know
I ain't no gangster, no gangbanger, bruh, I'm just 1-5 Years old
A private school is where I go, my lowest grade a 98
I'm tryna bе a doctor so I know I'm gon' have to do great
But I don't know if I can handle all this food that's on my platе
I only try as hard as I do out of my self-hate
When my bruh left me, ghosted me for just some bitch, I lost my mind
When that girl left me, ghosted me, I relapsed, wanted straight to die
Simplistic, yeah I know, but how I felt right at the time
If- if I got nobody, maybe it's not their fault, it could be mine
I ain't never had nobody ever there ask me, like
"Hey, how you doin'? Everything goin' alright?"
Like, nah, fuck, it's been too long, I been on here tryna rot
Six feet, Hell heap, in that early grave plot

[Hook]
I got blood up on my sheets, I been cryin' all day
Eyes dry, fuckin' red, I can't even see straight
I hadn't got high for about 7 months
But, the fake shit, it got to me that no one gives a fuck
Feelin' desolate and out to dry, ultimately dead inside
Brain is fucked, a scrambled mind since you were only over 5
Just by a couple months, now I guess it's all fucked
Went down a dark road, dark night, and it's fuckin' rough

[Verse 2]
Ritalin prescribed when I was only 6
Them stupid bitch doctors, guess they didn't know shit
How it would affect me in a couple years since
I was only like, I don't know, 6?
Could they not fuckin' sense
That a mind-altering drug won't be the best
Solution to my problem? I was too young for them fuckin' meds
Now it fucked me up, got depression and it's clinical
Paranoia, bipolar, and it's not original
My pysche is straight fucked from all the wires that were shocked
It's kind of a surprise I even want to be a doc
Maybe to prevent those same kids that were just like me
Havin' their brain beat to the fuckin' third degree
Honestly, I can't see reality without these pills
But if I never came back to the 919, it would be real
Fuck it all, I cannot fret, it's not my choice, I can't regret
I just regret my whole life right now, I'm so fuckin' stressed

[Hook]
I got blood up on my sheets, I been cryin' all day
Eyes dry, fuckin' red, I can't even see straight
I hadn't got high for about 7 months
But, the fake shit, it got to me that no one gives a fuck
Feelin' desolate and out to dry, ultimately dead inside
Brain is fucked, a scrambled mind since you were only over 5
Just by a couple months, now I guess it's all fucked
Went down a dark road, dark night, and it's fuckin' rough