The Words We Long to Forget

How many people have I used trying to end this hurt
How many people have I lain with just to feel self worth
I’m sick to death of pushing everyone away
Like I’m not the one that needs to change
How many times have I wrote this letter out in my head
How many times have I thought to call just to fall asleep instead
I hope to god I don’t keep you up at night
I hope to god theres someone right now holding you tight
I met this girl from back east who reminds me of home
I’ll never know what you saw in me
I met this boy from back east he warmed my bed from the cold
I took your love and then I set you free (Set you free)
Now I know I can never make this up to you
The words “I love you” were thrown like so many pedals to the wind
But I mean it every time I tell you I’m sorry
I never meant to hurt you
You were my best friend
Now I’ll just rot here on the pavement
We both know its what I deserve
Yeah I’ll just rot here on the pavement
Cause we both know its what I deserve