Spew

This is how i do it, this is how I copy you
Spewing through my music only laying down these facts and truths
Even when I'm going thru these moments that are colored blue
Your always there for me God I'm sticking thru like super glue

I'm not tryna flex I'm just tryna be my best
Just tryna make you proud God I'm not gonna rest,
Everytime I see a hurtle man I know it's just a test
By picking up my slacks all day fixing up this mess

I've always been alone in life like orphans in a mansion
Who has trouble making friends and Nevers get to know their parents

Whos clways fighting for the table scraps but never gets a sandwich
Its a life I never lived, but I feel it my hammock

Everytime I go to sleep my inner door i gotta I slam it
Escaping to my dreams where I can tame a wholly mammoths

Then I see into a world I love that gets me so enamored
cbsorbing in the galaxy, thinking like muhammad

I was thinking God just how you created this world
Maybe if I timed it right even I could write a picture
Damn I really miss her, got that magic like a wizard
I feel pressure on my chest my heart is breaking like a fissure,
Twisting up my inside every step creates a blister
If my heart would form a letter, it gets shredded by these scissors
I'm so afraid to be myself but I know this world is bigger
cnd if I wanna see a change then I gotta be the trigger

This is how i do it, this is how I copy you
Spewing through my music only laying down these facts and truths
Even when I'm going thru these moments that are colored blue
Your always there for me God I'm sticking thru like super glue

I'm not tryna flex I'm just tryna be my best
Just tryna make you proud God I'm not gonna rest,
Everytime I see a hurtle man I know it's just a test
By picking up my slacks all day fixing up this mess

This pain that's in my vein I try to squash keeps on resurfacing
I try to trust these people but my faith in you is worsening
I'm Bursting out with fear like a baby in a nursery
Furthering my trust issues are people that are hurting me

I got stones, I got bricks, I got led in my rucksack
I wash it down with liquor till all I see is pitch black

But I just want to change out of this skin it's been itching me
If I couldn't sleep with bedbugs then I sure cannot sleep with me

I say this so vehemently because my actions are increasingly
Getting more involved with hurting others willingly
This behemoth of a sin has been resting on my shoulders
cnd it's molded my bone structure and I feel like I'm much older

I scrub with blessed water, but the stain continues deepening
So I'm turning to you god to fix my illogical Reasoning
I know this is my journey, but I've broken every good path
So I'm praying for a grappling hook, a rope, so I can swing back