First Session (feat. Tania Frolova)

Reality makes me sober
I've tried to heal
But it lasts no longer than my next defeat
This world has no borders I wander here
Who could remind me how to live again
Yeah! Sometimes I act crazy
I wish I could not care
I wish I could just smell daisies
This is my burden I can't bear
I am trying my best I swear
I am trying to be perfect in relationship
But it's hard for me to keep afloat this ship
So much splits and inner hits
I can't find the solution that fits
Inside I am just a scared little kid
Trying to do what I always did
End a war
The war that started when I was born
Which is a very long time ago
I wish I could just show people my pov
How it is How it feels How it kills
And it always steals
Steals everything that is most precious to me!
Reality makes me sober I've tried to heal
But it lasts no longer than my next defeat
This world has no borders I wander here
Who could remind me how to live again
Sleepless nights
I can't have peace at night
Antidepressants
Why every peace needs to have a fight
Helpless sighs
I wake up depressed far from the light
I need those highs
This life space is getting really tight I'm wise
But I can't trust me so hide
I hurt people, sometimes
Hurtful words like my empathy died
Suicide lines
Splitting makes me a bad guide
No compromise
Wait, blood on my hands dried
Scars on my thighs
At this point death is my bride
Reality makes me sober I've tried to heal
But it lasts no longer than my next defeat
This world has no borders I wander here
Who could remind me how to live again
Our time's up
I know!
I feel gentle tap
You listened to this show!
Wow I'm glad!
Maybe I won't feel below
It's something I never had
I was always this low
Which is really bad
Maybe happiness will come tomorrow
I hope I'll keep out this sorrow
Sometimes I feel really hollow
But maybe there's a road I can follow
Until the beautiful tomorrow