My Prentiousness

Sorry for all the times I was
Fake deep relentless bathing
In pretentiousness no vacationing
But on a trip is where my rent done went
My priorities have came and went
Hierarchy of thoughts surpassed with
Whims of debauchery
The things important are out of order
Powdered nose in a bathroom stall gave
My head a clouded aura

I'm skipping class just to
Avoid the caste system
Confidence untouchable
I'm on a bar like Clair Huxtable
A clumsy poet
Stumbling through words listening to Decatur
I dropped acid and had a
Conversation with my creator
Journeyed through my insecurities
Alongside my accomplishments
My entire life was laid in front of me
Unraveled my consciousness and spoke
Me back into existence
I am small and vulnerable
I called you and you illustrated your
Love through photos and kind words
This feels heaven-sent
I stayed on the phone and softly whispered "I
Love you" as you tossed in your sleep

I'm a fly in the great span of time
I exist on a scale of endless multiplicity
Offering only my own mortality
Problems are so trivial: crying over
Late night spilt cereal
The stars exist sitting across
An unfathomable distance
As I marvel with my naked eye
In the late night sky

I have trouble formulating consistency
Writing in the margins of a topic unrelated
To what I had mentioned previously
The cocoon of depression: the
Blankets lying on the bed that I rest in

I don't always like to fake positivity
The exhaustions that I've found
Myself lost in, weaving a façade
I am happier than I was
I express myself softly with strong words
I shout my insecurities until I am
Proud to carry their weight