Eyes Wide Open

It's so hard to watch you struggle
Even harder when I have to see you stumble
Short tempers, harsh words that humble
Watching the world, watching the world around me crumble

I won't fight back
Can't give in
Won't stay here forever like this
Overwhelming my senses
Again

Like a brother, like a sister
Something like a family
I was so lonely but you saved me
Insecurities race through my heart
New situation, realizing my part
The needles change like seasons
We're fighting our own addictions

Patience brings heartaches
Anger flies - Still we try

I won't fight back
Can't give in
Won't stay here forever like this
Refusing consciousness
To drown in, to cope with
Inebriate!
To find when waking
That nothing has been chaaaanged!

Take. One more drink. You can't live without it!
Take one more drink!
Take. One more drink. Or drown without it!
Take one more drink!

So hard to talk about it!
How did I know that you lie about it!?
Stand there and watch you sink without it!
Losing sleep at night, I still dream about it!

I won't fight back
Can't give in
Won't stay here forever like this
Refusing consciousness
To drown in!
To cope with!
Inebriate!
To find that nothing has chaaaanged!