Winter in Limbo

Winter in limbo
The winter was an exercise in trying to stay calm
And I learned so much I would have rather not
In this one-sided conversation
My past goes at self-preservation
Never seemed to want it bad enough

And the new year always sucked
But this was still the worst one yet
And I still don't know what any of it meant

There’s lots of ways to kill my time and I'm mastering them all
Yeah time is just a gift I never asked for
It's something that I gave away while
Flattеned underneath thе weight of
Losing some imaginary score

While I pull out every grey hair
From my sad old stoner’s head
I still won't know what any of it meant

And I could dissect every choice I made in the garden of my past
Wince at every blunder on my lonely winding path
I could strangle every victory
With the vice of old regret
And I still won't know what any of it meant