Tearing Me Apart

I've seen it all before - time and time again
As close as I would ever dare to be
And yet without a doubt - I will disagree
The sudden truth is no surprise to me

I know there is no easy way
I've said it from the start
Sometimes you've got to live the life
And feel the pain
I hear a beat inside my head
I feel it in my heart
But just the thought of it is driving me insane
It's tearing me apart

I hear a distant voice - very far away
I'm silent now - I don't know what to say
I've felt a strong desire
To set myself on fire
I don't think that would work for me today