WHO I AM

Down
I fell down on my knees before
Handled the vial but overdosed
Thought that's the way it goes
And I
Schemed myself in ways
Rooting for fever dreams, always bad for me
So it seems
Tables never turned, receipts got burned
You made me forget who I was
Before I broke, I'd only bend
Who I am
The weight I lifted, was shapeshifting into versions of
Who I am
Lost all the reasons, almost treason, it's deceiving
Who I am
Conquered doubts, carved them out to keep that image of
Who I am
Slow down
Run a few circles and turn the stones
It's only mighty to catch these blows
Thought that's the way it goes
When you keep counting each mistake
Another mark, let's cut the breaks
Till we crash down
But we tell ourselves it won't be long,
There's nothing wrong with
Who I am
The weight I lifted, was shapeshifting into versions of
Who I am
Lost all the reasons, almost treason, it's deceiving
Who I am
Conquered doubts, carved them out to keep that image of
Who I am
Without catching all that shade
Sun will make the shadow fade
Before I'm losing it, twisting in this state
No more living in a haze, betting on what's left at stake
Won't go down that road, been here before
And this is what remains
Who I am
The weight I lifted, was shapeshifting into versions of
Who I am
Lost all the reasons, almost treason, it's deceiving
Who I am
Conquered doubts, carved them out to keep that image of
Who I am
Who I am
Who I am