Great Expectations

[Verse 1]
I used to be happy to create
But now I don't come up with ideas, I’m like "I'll wait"
I used to feel something every time that I made
But now I feel like I'm watching everything fade

[Chorus]
Getting tired of my exasperation
I really need an anxiety eradication
I wake up everyday and feel my great desperation
Feeling pressured by all of my great expectations
I said I didn’t know what was wrong with me
Well, I lied
And if I die tonight, I can't say that I tried

[Verse 2]
I feel drained, not sure if I can make another record
I should be the poster child for r/choosingbeggars
I want everything, but I want it a certain way
I wake up and know it'll hurt today
I don't eat breakfast 'cause I'm feeling too antsy
My friends think I'm more picky than Gordon Ramsay
And they're right then
Only feel alive when it’s night then, yeah, yeah
If I leave, I’m crawling right back to ya
Rose from my bed like I'm Dracula
Yeah, I never see the sun
Living life in reruns
Got a life I’m still tryna find the value of
Feel worked to death although I'm never busy
Got a secret life like I'm Walter Mitty
Ignoring all of my texts, I'm once again stuck in my hex

[Chorus]
Getting tired of my exasperation
I really need an anxiety eradication
I wake up everyday and feel my great desperation
Feeling pressured by all of my great expectations
I said I didn’t know what was wrong with me
Well, I lied
And if I die tonight, I can't say that I tried

[Post-Chorus]
Wanted to dress like a vampire but I never thought I'd live like one
I thought the style was cool, now it's gone too far
In 5th grade I romanticized depression
Life gives you what you put out everyday
So don't use that power the wrong way, the wrong way

[Verse 3]
Ay
I can't lie, each day gets better by a bit
But I'm still stressed by great expectations, call me Pip
Life's a joke and I don't get the bit
But each day I can see why I don't quit
Took the incorrect direction, yeah, I'm going the wrong way
Sit myself down, say “I'm making Thursdays 'please make a song' day”
I'm starting to think it's time to get serious if I'm tryna be a star, no Sirius