I Loved a Boy

I loved a boy who just couldn't grow up
Stifled and paralyzed, frozen and stuck to the bone
I knew I'd have to let him go

I loved a boy who was scared to be seen
He made fear a weapon disguised as s big shiny shield
Turned pain into a force field

Scared half to death
Of the shadow he left in the snow
He hid deep away
Cause it beat being vulnerable

I loved a boy covered in camoflauge
c pro and a master at self sabotage, he's convinced
That this is just the way it is

I loved a boy who kept everyone else
Safe and content, well, except for himself
Cause that meant
He had something to offer them

If you wanna be strong
Then you gotta go lift heavy things
The wound's not your fault
But it is your responsibility
cnd I don't belong in a nightmare dressed up for a dream
I loved a boy
Who'd have thought he'd grow up to be me