Cold Pillows And Warm Blades

Dear whoever
Here's another letter that I'll never send
If you get this ever
I'll be at my most bitter end
The last time we spoke she spit only warm blades and open bombs
Now this ink is running through my veins
So shut the fuck up and try to understand
These words no breath could ever hope to carry
She's my last big mistake

She is the new machine
And falling into the new machine seems to be my only way out now
To my defeater: Don't even bother to read this
I will fail you every single time
The sound of her voice sharpens my flaws into daggers
So let's toast this to my utter loss

The thought of forever disgusts me
Blankets of snow fall deep into failure
Your cold pillow beckons me to close your eyes forever
The Sun is getting dull and I awaken cold and alone
So just give me an ending
Give me one more reason
Yeah, yeah, yeah