Escape

I think about my life and
What it means to me
Who am I? Am I worthy?
What will my purpose be?
What's in store??
Can't say for sure you see
But I've got the brush until
It's time to leave

"Why not Manifest, you're the best
Young boy you're blessed
This life's a test a quest, with no
Time to rest
Leave you feeling stressed, depressed
You gotta give it your best
Just leave that bitch finessed"

That's from the voice inside of me
Guiding me, Providing me, Frightens, More so Enlightens me
Give a fuck less About my insecurities
I know that I'm a mess and I gotta battle sobriety
Anything and everything Anything but reality
Always found a way to ignore my responsibility
Had about enough
Shit is tough, It is rough
Nothing new
You still gotta push to poop

When I'm tryna take a break from my everyday
Gettin fucked by life in every way
When it's tryna push me down I try to stay
I figure out a way to escape this place
When I get up on the beat it puts a smile on my face
Negativity deleted now with love I replace
Kill the pain, like the Waynes, in a dark alleyway
Real till the day I die
That's just

Thoughts on my mind I conceive it
Question is should I believe it
Maybe I was meant to see it
Gonna come out undefeated
See 'em in my dreams, wonder what they mean, things aren't what they seem
Hush now
Little Johnny don't scream

My soul too tired to beat my meat
Turned that shit around to when I meet the beat
Open new doors
Sometimes you gotta believe
Tell me who knows
What is meant to be

Grab a pen and a page
Fill myself up with rage
Spaz out, lock myself, in the room for days
This is how I take a break
From the day to day
Welcome to the world of

When I spill on the page my feelings
Cum on the face of my demons
Set my mind free cause I need it
Spit it record it repeat it
Not cause I wanna release this
Part of my mind it's my thesis
Chill cause He's just
A boy who needs Jesus

Nobody can imprison you
But your thoughts can
They want me to crash burn up in flames
Can't be fazed man
Can I believe the painted pictures across these walls
Swear to god didn't sign myself no up for these wars

But I'm guessin these are battles
That we all gotta face
Messin' up our mental space
While we run the rat race
I'm looking for the big picture
Fuck a Polaroid
Turn my heart to music
Just to fill the void

Bustin' my ass to get that College degree
Knew it all along this wasn't Cut out for me
End of four years and I'm feelin destroyed
Can't forget the fact man I'm Still unemployed
Johnny working nine to five like the rest of the boys
I just wanna see my mama's face light up joy
Hoping one day she can shout and rejoice
While she's Looking at the sky
Wondering if she's high!

So you do
What you gotta do
Don't care what they think about you
Do what you wanna do
They don't really give a shit about you
Just a view
From me to you
Well I wish my younger self knew
It's true
Be true to you
Cause at the end of the day
All you got is you