Enough

Here's a little line that I can't say
I'll catch it in my throat and throw it away
And if I lose my voice, it's a price I'll pay

I'm happy that you're in my life again
But it's bittersweet to call you friend
You can't demote me if it stays unsaid

We're so close
But still far enough that you can leave
But you don't go
You're just out of arms reach

I can't risk this
Look how we've come so far
I love you, but I must protect my heart
I can't lose this
This scrap of what we are
So we can play pretend, I'll play my part
As long as we're friendly, it's enough
It's better than the nothing I once was

There's not a part of me that wants to lie
But if you knew the truth I wouldn't survive
'Cause I cannot live through another goodbye

But there's a part of me that hopes you know
And you feel the same but words are stuck in your throat
Who am I kidding, I'm living on hope

I remind myself
That I'm lucky to have you around
I'll be fine
Just not right now

I can't risk this
Look how we've come so far
I love you, but I must protect my heart
I can't lose this
This scrap of what we are
So we can play pretend, I'll play my part
As long as we're friendly, it's enough
It's better than the nothing I once was

Am I dumb to think I'll make it through
Am I holding in 'til I turn blue
Am I ever gonna let go of you

Am I dumb to overthink these signs
Am I talking to you on bought time
Am I losing you or losing my mind

I can't risk this
Look how we've come so far
I love you, but I must protect my heart
I can't lose this
This scrap of what we are
So we can play pretend, I'll play my part
As long as we're friendly, it's enough
It's better than the nothing I once was

Here's a little line that I can't say
I'll catch it in my throat and throw it away
And if I lose my voice, it's a price I'll pay