Roulette russe

Last breath, no sweat
Only my guts and the lead
And red blood pumping in my veins
As I take the gun to my head
Still it keeps echoing through my mind
That life is just a stupid bet
Is freedom of choice for the blind ?
Can't I decide of my own fate ?

Dance with death
And the skies above
A matter of seconds
A glimpse at eternity
To be or not to be ?
If that is the question
Then so it will be
I've never felt so alive
How will I end this madness ?
How can I ever choose ?
Alone in my distress
What have I got to lose ?

I roll the barrel, pull the trigger
While the trill takes me higher
Gambling with my brains
In the sweet smell of gunpowder
Juggling with my fear
Like in a game that never ends
I'm so sick of surviving
But today could be my lucky day

I can clearly hear
The click of my empty gun
And as it all ends
It has only just begun
My fear is still here
I'm still on the run
Running from myself
But tomorrow, I'm gone

How will I end this madness ?
How can I ever choose ?
Alone in my distress
What have I got to lose ?