Heaven

Heaven, do you miss me?
Heaven, is there still a place for us?
Heaven, stay with me
Heaven, I saved you a seat after school on the bus
Heaven, do you hear me?
Heaven, I've been calling out to you
I'm waiting at the window
Holding my breath till I turn blue

Heaven, I'm trying
Heaven, can we still figure it out?
Heaven, I promise I'll be better
Heaven, I'll learn to be devout
Heaven, I'll grow my hair and paint my face and nails a holy hue
Heaven, I'd sign my soul away
If it meant I'd get to be with you

Heaven, do you fear me?
Heaven, I'm sorry, didn't mean to open up
Heaven, I'm taking medication
Heaven, I'm trying to be less fucked up
Cause Heaven I caught it, sleeping in the closet
Heaven, I cut it out for you
There's a hole in my chest now
Heaven, will you make me new?

Heaven, I'm weary
Heaven, whatever happened to trust?
Cause Heaven, I'm a tire iron left in the rain and I'm starting to rust
It's getting dreary
Heaven, I'm done waiting around for you
Cold-blooded karma
Heaven, I won't spill my veins for you

Heaven, are you near me?
Heaven, do you watch me from above?
Cause from down here it's clear that Heaven
I was never someone you could love
But Heaven, would you close the door if you saw me sitting washed up at the bar
Alone drinking whiskey
Heaven, would you kiss me?

Heaven, do you miss me?
Cause, Heaven, I still think of you
Heaven, would you turn the key and open up the gates to let me through?
Cause Heaven I'm inside out and backwards
But I'm bright and burning new
One stone unturned now
Heaven, if I asked you to
Would you let me through?