RUN AWAY

I think I'm tired of trying
But I'm too tired of crying
I get in a space that's too hard to get out
Painkillers can't fix this, it's up to me now
I think I'm tired of smiling
But I'm too used to just hiding
I get locked in a space and there's no key
Floating away from reality, I don't really know who I'm supposed to be

It's killing me
The struggle I have to calm down and breathe
Anxiety is controlling me
I lay up until 4 in the morning and I always feel empty
They say I'm negative and that my mind is twisted
If I left this life right now, I doubt that I would miss it
I'm sorry I say things like that, I don't mean it
The intrusive thoughts just make me talk but nobody believes it
This ain't a phase, no
Voices in my head say run away, woah
They don't know the shit that I even I know
Melodies on melodies, hitting high notes
Late in the night, I can't think straight
Haven't felt like myself for the past 3 days
Depression running my head, so I don't feel great
Insecurity arrives as anxiety awaits
As anxiety awaits
As anxiety awaits
No matter how many times you happen to ask
I'm a mess and I swear I'm always off track
Hit the road next week already all packed
My hearts a fortress and we're under attack

I think I'm tired of trying
But I'm too tired of crying
I get in a space that's too hard to get out
Painkillers can't fix this, it's up to me now
I think I'm tired of smiling
But I'm too used to just hiding
I get locked in a space and there's no key
Floating away from reality, I don't really know who I'm supposed to be