Broken Home

All I hear is yelling, fighting, I feel it swelling, all the hatred, it ain't hiding and you weren't helping
You have your version of your story and I have my version of my story the difference is your's tell lies
On knowing if there was trauma that you gave me, you showed me why my father is what I'm painting
While you doubt me and wondered why he inspirers me and gives me a craving to follow my dreams
Growing up with parents who hated each other, I'm actually glad you and dad never got back together
I could've hated you but I'm glad I didn't even tho I said it just to hurt you and I never meant it
I guess the excuse is I had a lot of anger, you hating him never made sense, you left a cliffhanger
You wonder why I get mad when you introduce me to another man like
If he's able to replace my only father

You say you'll rather be alone but that's what makes you afraid
You gave me a broken home that I remembered since I was eight
I can't ever forget the place I came from, where I was raised
I wish it was in a grave but I'm glad that was able to change

I feel forgotten many days, like if I'm healed hostage, left in a box so my skin can decay
I can't drop it for some reason, most times I awake with a conscious that's left in space
I wasn't cautious with my ways, a door opened and I decided to run away
I'm tryna stay positive but I'm afraid that I'll break and turn into a jokester, never again the same
I got a promise I need to keep so I can't let her take an Identity that belongs to me
I go through things that make me think why do I go through this
Why can't I be gone so I can't go though these things again
She takes advantage of every opportunity, she leaves me damaged as product of a broken family
Had a useless bandage that never helped me stop bleeding
I'm tryna not let it affect me but it keeps leaking

You say you'll rather be alone but that's what makes you afraid
You gave me a broken home that I remembered since I was eight
I can't ever forget the place I came from, where I was raised
I wish I was in a grave but I'm glad that was able to change