Forsaken

Why have you forsaken me
Why do you not answer me
Don't tell me you're ashamed of me
Cuz Jesus you my everything
I cry in the daytime and night and you're still not answering
Yet you're holy and you will save me
I understand if you are ashamed
Oh I'm to blame because I don't tame
My only flesh and the thoughts I think
But I thank You cuz You are the Great I AM
Sry cuz they aren't mistakes
Why am I feeling like I'm a mistake
I know this guilt isn't Yours to make
But I feel like I'm drowning in this lake
When I left You man did I miss You
Cuz when she came in I thought she would handle
All the stress but she messed with my candle
She burned me down with what I thought I can't channel
All the love You gave to me
I gave to her when I couldn't breath
You brought me back and I still can't believe
That I can't hear you cuz
Why have you forsaken me
Why do you not answer me
Don't tell me you're ashamed of me
Cuz Jesus you my everything
I cry in the daytime and night and you're still not answering
Yet you're holy and you will save me
Sometimes I felt like the wall was my friend
Cuz when I spoke to You I felt like never speaking again
Always choking too cuz I had no feeling to repent
Now there's some days I do but I stop when I go back to sin
I could tell I felt You watching me suffering within
Looking at me waiting for me to eventually give in
But I had control of myself why did she come to ruin ?
All the progress I had, I should've knew this but I blew it
Cuz I never knew I couldn't handle
Being lit up all alone like a candle
Knowing I had to go back to the old days
Having no one to tell me they understand bull
Young bull having little young goals
Was gonna give up but He said Oh No !
Was gonna pull the trigger cuz I was broke
But He saved me from her endless gun whole
Oh man she tried her best to take my soul
I cannot even imagine how it would've been if I had let it happen
Lord your holiness is madness
Cuz taking me back after my absence was never my plan
But somehow you brought me to the point
I can never comprehend
All the love You give to such a man
Your flawless and I'm such a flawed human
I can never live up to Your plan
But Imma keep trusting
You are my only
Strength in the morning
Don't be far from me
You do not owe me
I owe You my livelihood
And the Glory that they give me is solely
For You cuz your Holy
Even tho they wanna come just to mock me
Saying let God save him then they leave
But I know You won't turn your back and forsake me
Don't forsake me
DON'T FORSAKE ME !