Dear God (feat. hakebomb)

Dear God
I ain't askin for perfect
I just wanna believe when You say that I deserve it
Like a thousand times I've heard it
But the count don't matter when your heart holds holds all the hurt in
Repeat the cycle, guess I'm back again
Fight for survival with this pad and pen
Wanna look into the bible when I have a quest,
But people are the writers and our word ain't the best
If humans are the source I ain't hearing what you're sayin
A new agenda added with every denomination
Don't believe you want my tithe, I'm defaultin on my payments
If they lie about that scared to know what else they fakin
Dear God
I ain't askin for perfect
I just wanna believe when You say that I deserve it (all my life I've always felt like I'm a burden)
Like a thousand times I've heard it
But the count don't matter when your heart holds all the hurt in (if I want love I gotta do something to earn it)
How many times we gonna have this conversation?
How many lines I gotta drop before you'll finally take one?
How many rhymes I gotta jot before my revelation?
This relationship just isn't addin up to expectations
Cuz every one says that you're amazin
But when I hear my head tell me they're fakin
Those words written in red? They're just statements
When I'm locked in this bed by depression and self-hatred
We both know most of my life been callin out to you
I still get no reply don't know what else to do
Am I believing a lie, should I invest in you?
Cuz so far the returns have left me destitute.
Yeah I'm broke. In every way that counts
All the money in the world couldn't save me now
Wanna love myself first, need You to show me how
Cuz that pile of dirt calls my name real loud
Dear God
I ain't askin for perfect
I just wanna believe when You say that I deserve it (all my life I've always felt like I'm a burden)
Like a thousand times I've heard it
But the count don't matter when your heart holds all the hurt in (if I want love I gotta do somethin to earn it)
I ain't askin for perfect
I just wanna believe when You say that i deserve it
I ain't askin for perfect
I just wanna believe when You say that I deserve it
Like a thousand times I've hear it
But the count don't matter when your heart holds all the hurt in