Unable to Love

I'm free at last
And I'm happy to be alone with just me but now
It's time to face the facts
I'm ever so lonely
I don't miss you or your verbal abuse
What I miss is a kiss when I'm down
It's hard to have no one
It's hard to be alone with nothing but negative thoughts

But even if I wanted to find someone now
I need some time to just figure things out
Cuz everything you did to me altered my mind
I'm gonna have to think outside the box to unwind
And I'm trying to find someone for me
But just because I left, your abuse is not complete
It haunts me and it brings back the painful memories
And I cannot do this on my own

And now I'm angry that you left your mark on me
I'll forever be lonely all because of your broken wings
And now I can't feel things that I want to feel
All because you had your way and made it so I can never heal

You never gave me room to breathe
You lied right to my face
And I can never forget all the things that you said
The way you made me feel
Like all the fault was mine
When you were the one who cheated and lied
It wasn't meant to be? It wasn't quite for me?
No
Your damage isn't hard to see
And now I'm stranded all alone
Not able to love anyone until depression's gone

The lies, the guilt, deceit, you left on me
It altered the way I think
It damaged me to the brink
The same thing that I said I can never have again you drove straight through my head
Until the end
And now I'm facing the consequence
That I don't deserve
All because of you