Another Ode

I spent my days,
Building up to now,
And now it's here,
I can't think how,
I made it seem,
So big to me,
Love made my eyes,
Too blind to see.
It's about me now?
Then tell me why...
You have to ask:
Will I live or die?
And you can't tell,
How I'll react,
Or if my mind,
Will stay intact.
I'm not so sure,
You even care,
But after all;
You put me there.
And is it fair,
That I get scarred,
Everytime I,
Drop my guard?
Now times have changed,
It's fantasy,
That love has a place,
In this century.
And all I've learned,
Throughout these years,
Is you turn laughter,
Into tears.
And is it fair,
That I get scarred,
Everytime I,
Drop my guard?
I never take,
The advice I should.
I'm no so sure,
I ever could
Destroy the hope,
That burns within,
You'll open up,
And let me in...