There Are Pictures of Me On the Internet

I want this song to be about something else
I want to look elsewhere. Focus. I missed it
But I have yet to take my eyes off the shadow I mistook for you
Illusions create confusion fused with
Feelings that I'm losing to resentment
When yesterday's nightmare seems like a
Miracle its time to go down below the decks to avoid the rain
Bury myself inside and wonder why you keep coming up short
But there's always one hand left that's cleaner than the one that's soiled
One washes the other and so it slips away
Disappointment fades, I disengage from the standards that
I've made so hard to reach. But do I even have a clue?
Yeah, thanks for the fuck. Nothing in a physical sense
A mental captivation, a true exercise of imagination
It takes every bit of my strength to say no but
I'm taking every step I can to learn to grow
Inspiration yielding contemplation
Fulfill my dreams by tearing out the seams though
I know it's not what it seems to be
Open eyes and toleration. Self-reflection
Open to rejection, apply my own standards to myself
Rise stiff as a board