From the Bottle

I was so addicted man I ain't know what to do
I'm flowing on this beat just to say what I been through
From the bottle to the coke to the Xans to the blues
I had to get clean now I'm sober starting new
Overdosed too many times I made my mama cry
I remember laying on the floor just thinking I would die
It sucks when all you wanna do in life is go get high
And when you look in a mirror you see the tears in your eyes

I was doomed from the start
To let my life fall apart
I knew I was an addict from the bottom of my heart
Left my people fuckin scarred
Cuz watching over me was hard hoping
That I wouldn't end up dead or behind fuckin bars
It's hard to live your life when the drugs rule your mind
Every day I'm seeing double but my visions really blind
Didn't care about my health I let it rapidly decline
This is how I lived my life for years at a time
Fuck them people selling all that cut shit for the profit
Hope they die in fuckin prison and they rot inside they coffin
I know they gotta live with all that shit inside they closet
Damn... that's just not it

I was so addicted man I ain't know what to do
I'm flowing on this beat just to say what I been through
From the bottle to the coke to the Xans to the blues
I had to get clean now I'm sober starting new
Living life over feeling like I got a purpose
Looking back upon my past damn I say that shit was worth it
One day at a time, man I really earned this
I don't wanna die this is life as I prefer it

Drinking every day just to try and ease the pain
Till I took too many shots and that shit ain't feel the same
Was a zombie off the drugs and I thought I was insane
Fucking up my whole life thinking that it was a game
Turned into a cheater and a liar and a thief
That shit kept me up at night and it didn't let me sleep
Making promises to people that I knew I wouldn't keep
So I could be snorting shit and fuckin hoes and living life like a dream

Almost killed one of the realest woulda had blood on my hands
And I thought that shit was funny cuz I didn't understand that
I really almost ended the life of another man
And I feel so much regret cuz that's some shit I just can't stand

Lost all of my bread yeah I'm talking bands
Lost all of my will to carry out my future plans
Lost most of myself after a couple hundred grams
Had to get clean and work a brand new fuckin program yeah
Went into a rehab just to get drugs out my system
Got myself a sponsor and he shared with me his wisdom
He said we gonna work some steps so when you look back you don't miss em
And we gonna give your life to God but you gotta learn to trust him

I was so addicted man I ain't know what to do
I'm flowing on this beat just to say what I been through
From the bottle to the coke to the Xans to the blues
I had to get clean now I'm sober starting new