You Go First

I build you up, I help you stand. I weather all your cruel demands. I’m terrified of every word. My anxious heart is on the mend, but here I am right back again. This beating heart is not your friend. But that’s you - that’s so you. You go first, it’s not my loss. You go first, and I’ll go on. I know you won’t let go of this now. So close your mind ’til it hurts. What’s good for you is killing me. The choice is yours and I’m a slave. I realize it’s only a phase. You eat this up, oh that’s enough. God knows I’m falling short. We all give up, a part of us. Whatever gives you what you need to live. Whatever you say whatever you say here. We tear apart the closest ones to our hearts