Am I a Monster

When my rage is bursting in
When my demons close to win
Only question remains
Am I a monster?

After iv'e lost my control
Will I ever change at all
Did I choose the right way

Only time will tell
I ain't gonna wait until then

Trying to find
What is messing with my mind
And why I
Can't feel alright
Can't deny
It keeps burning me inside
And there is no place to hide

Being haunted by my fears
Fighting not to disappear
Lost all sense off purpose
Broken and hollow
But I won't let myself go down
Raise my head up of the ground
Gather all the pieces

Of what's left of me
I ain't gonna wait
Until then

Trying to find
What is messing with my mind
And why I
Can't feel alright
Can't deny
It keeps burning me inside
And there is no place to hide

My scars are open again
Bursting emotions
I'm drowning in pain
Feels like I've locked up all of my demons
In the same cell
With escape plans
And I know
That when I'm down I'm losing restrain
I can't let it happen 'cause if I do then I am to blame
Reality mixed up in my mind
Can't tell what is wrong or what is right
(I keep on running from my monsters let me go)
I'm running from what I have become
I'm bleeding but still feeling numb

I'm trying to find anything that will remind me that I can feel alright

Trying to find
What is messing with my mind
And why I
Can't feel alright
Can't deny
It keeps burning me inside
And there is no place to hide