James

I went on a
self destructive rampage last night.
now I’m paying for it,
But can’t afford the price.

don’t know how I’ve got here.
Been happy all year.
hadn’t taken any drugs
before this.

So I took loads of Charlie and drank till everything was blurry
In an Irish pub in stokey.
lost my burning desire to live
In a couple lines of ketamine.
Shut my brain up for a sec,
And washed it all down with some sex.
Took a cold shower
At anti social hours,
And crawlled back to my bed.

And then I woke up to you,
And your eyes glazed over like mine,
Except you haven’t had three bottles of wine.
I’m coughing from smoking,
Your groaning from a headache.
I’m wishing I could crawl into your skin for a day.
And then I woke up to you,
And your nose bleed dripping like mine.
Except you haven’t had too many white lines.
I’m coughing from smoking,
Your groaning from a headache.
Your wishing for a drug that can take the pain away.

I hope the drugs make you feel better.
Whilst your Tryna stay alive,
Im using mine to feel deader.

I’ve been cornered,
By all the thoughts
I’ve tried to suppress.
Feel like a coward,
Colouring the darkness in my mind
With narcotics.

Don’t know how I got here.
This was meana be my year.
Tonight I’ll wear the mask
& play the clown.
Anything to forget.

So I spent my weekly budget
On tequila,
Shots for the squad,
Like I’m the geezer,
lost my burning desire to live
In a couple Es & a nasty trip.
Shut my brain up for a sec,
And washed it all down with some sex,
Sat on the roof,
With a rollie,
& crawlled back to my bed.

And then I woke up to you
And your eyes glazed over like mine,
Except you haven’t had three bottles of wine.
I’m coughing from smoking,
Your groaning from a headache.
I’m wishing I could crawl into your skin for a day.
And then I woke up to you,
And your nose bleed dripping like mine.
Except you haven’t had too many white lines.
I’m coughing from smoking,
Your groaning from a headache.
Your wishing for a drug that can take the pain away.

I hope the drugs make you feel better.
Whilst your Tryna stay alive,
Im using mine to feel deader.