Lullabye

I'm sorry that I ask a lot of you, I wish I could be home
Life can be a lot of things, and sometimes it can be hard

I'm trying to make friends with the voice in my head but it can be such an awful mess
I'm learning to love myself at my worst, and check myself at my best

I'm running on a treadmill in the middle of a landfill, gathering moss no matter how much I roam
A highlight reel of guilt and shame looping through my mind
The times I've ran and the chances I've blown

Give me this day my daily bread, the poisons my body demands
And I'll continue on ahead do what my heart demands

I hate it, I love you, we fear for our lives they're put to good use
I love you, I hate this, let fear fuel our fire, let nothing be useless

Well I'm runnin' around in circles and I'm falling down and I'm working my hands to the bone
Devil is my time clock and I'm workin' for my checks and I don't really want to come home
We're runnin' off the deep and end and we're runnin' off the rails wreckin' what's left of our home
That devil is a time clock and I'm working for my check so I can pay my medical bills
My greatest fear is losing the favor of my friends and burdening the ones that I love
By chasing some dream and ignoring my health but I can't keep on runnin' from myself
My teeth are jagged and I've been beaten ragged by the carrot till I'm chewing on sticks
I may be young for a junkyard dog but I'm still havin' trouble with new tricks

It's another sunset and the sky's turning red
But tomorrows' another day