Waiting

Can't sleep tonight too much on my mind
Been in fist fights with the hands of time
Had to gather my thoughts share my soul
I've lost my mind and let things go
Let me know when I start to sound sane
Screaming for change both money and change
Doing my thing not for you but for me
Not for the fans just to explore me
I've been snoring while others before me
Look down with their stares and glares
I know what you think of me I have nightmares
But it replays again and again
So where my real friends at I'm at my end
So my exodus is my genesis 
I'm my own nemesis and expressing this 
May not be with fancy punchlines
Not to be played on the block or lunchlines
This is not ringtone music
​This is me trying not to lose it
I shouldn't have to beg for you to feature 
Still you act like you're my teachers
Who was at your show when you first started?
I feel alone but we're just nearly departed
You're dead to me this more than bread to me
I breathe this in and it travels through my veins and arteries
Who can do this artistry?
I choose my path and you chose yours
I've beaten down but rose from the floor
Not to take jabs but to make my hits,
Records come and go but you act wreckless
Man, I wreck this without bling or necklace 
Forget this you have no time but get this
I'm stronger for my pain and my shame
Took that for God to make his name
Louder in my ear prouder do I fear
You're a stumbling block that became my stepping stone
Waiting for you to change realizing that your gone
Waiting for my change realizing that I'm grown
I'm way too grown for this nonsense
I've only hurt my closest friends in the process
Losing my self fighting for success
Blind through it all I am blessed
I've been waiting waiting for a better me
I've been praying praying for forever see
And if want to see a change I know that it should start with me, start with me, start with me