Written in the Dark

I was feeling like I had no options
In the studio 100 nights I had to lock in
Lil nigga turned big dawg and it’s shocking
Never thought it’d be a time a nigga buying watches
They don’t see me but they hear me turn me up a couple notches uhh
I’m trynna cleanse my soul
So let the sage burn slow like the bridges in my past
Old friends switching on me it’s a shame we didn’t last
Cause I’m about to blow I’m just waiting on the blast
I can feel it in my bones broken heart
I need a cast But it isn’t all bad
For every tear I shed I wrote a banger and they felt that
Gave em all I have and all I had I never held back
I done been thru hell and I ain’t trynna go the hell back
Of everything I’ve gained they on focused where I failed at
Hate that fact that no one really knows how much I try
Cause my limit is the universe I’m tryna touch the sky
Breeze by, wave bye then it’s on to higher levels
Bitches ain’t have time for me with nothing on their schedules
Now a days they throw it at me cause I’m popping like some kettle
Trynna tell myself I’m worthy and don’t ever need to settle
Tell my momma that she’s worthy and she never needs to settle
Think my mom is Heaven sent for her if turn into the devil hey
I’ve had an over load of compliments
And since I’ve found my lane I’ve had an overdose of confidence
Finally feel like someone people actually wanna listen to,
Hiphop isn’t dead I’m the vessel it’s been living thru
Sorry lil mama ain’t got time to shoot the shit wit you
Ain’t got time to get wit you
Niggas only bring a plate and wonder why they couldn’t sit with you
If you ain’t talking money then you better talk residuals
Never rode a wave I’ve always been an individual
They smile in ya face but the motives always cynical
I’ve had too many stab wounds
Way too many heart breaks
Supposed it hasn’t given up it’s so much that my heart takes
All my friends are old news
Exes back with old dudes
Joe you when in private but in public they don’t know you
Only praise ya shine if you give light so they can glow too
Uhh this the type of shit I go thru
And if you feel then you know too
No cap but I’m a head of my time
You catching up to get ahead of my rhymes
But all my bars over heads like I dead lift
I’m spiritually a century
Money don’t make sense to me
If you ain’t pay ya way
Then don’t you offer ya 2 cent to me
I used to sleep on floors without a blanket or a sheet
I had goals to be the Shepard so I had to play the sheep
If they sleeping let em sleep
Cause my dreams turn reality
Paint a picture vivid I could sell it to a gallery
Bitches in my gallery they won’t get exposed tho
Hard to give my love away cause hoes gon be hoes so
I keep it on a low pro
I never flex for hoes cause she gon fuck me in some bobos
Or fuck him in some polo
Hard to trust a soul I’m always rocking by my dolo
Keep my circle small and I could never let my bro’s go
I’ve had too many stab wounds
Way too many heart breaks
Supposed it hasn’t given up it’s so much that my heart takes
All my friends are old news
Exes back with old dudes
Joe you when in private but in public they don’t know you
Only praise ya shine if you give light so they can glow too
Uhh this the type of shit I go thru
And if you feel then you know too