PERMANENT BLUE

[Verse]
I drank away all my hope and smoked away all my dreams
Grabbed the mic', never choked, my heart break into seams
I know you think I'm okay, this is not what it seems
Close the blinds, choke on broken tears, I couldn't breathe
And, honestly, I'd understand it if you probably leave
Paranoia got me fucked, this ain't who I wanna be
The happiest of futures, that's the shit that I couldn't see
I fear the worst, don't sleep so I can't miss a beat
Uh, rapping is shit, I feel like taking my life
The good shit don't suffice, my soul still full of spite
And every day I see shit that I'm knowing ain't right
And we ain't all in this together 'causе I still gotta fight
Every night, voices tellin' mе to call it a quit
I'ma be honest 'cause I never would've asked to exist
I hate my parents 'cause they put me here, I feel like a bitch
Punched the wall, dried blood coagulate on my fist
A new watch on my wrist, some new drip that I get
It still don't make me happy, all the money makin' me sick
'Cause it don't mean nothing when my spirit's in the abyss
It's a shame, I wanna kill myself while y'all copping Rick
I can't believe this is my life since I turned twenty-two
My whole view changed, I've been stuck in permanent blue
All the color in the world went away with you
And music ain't making it better cause I hate that too