Was it me?

I'm scrolling through the words of love you had to say
It's never been the truth, but I believed
You made it clear it was a lie that you were forced to make
So now you blame it all on me and leave
I've had enough of thinking I'm the only villain
Hating myself for everything I've done
My spine breaks, carrying all the weight of blaming
I tear myself apart, wishing me to die
Was I the one who always hurt and left you bleeding?
Who broke you, took away your peace and made a mess?
Was I the one who always said goodbye when you were leaving?
Who wasn't and will never be your happiness?
Was it really me?
My love's never been enough though I would die for you
My hands are bleeding, trying to hold on
You want to run away from me, you say you often do
So will you stay this time or let me go?
I've had enough of thinking I'm the only villain
Hating myself for everything I've done
My spine breaks, carrying all the weight of blaming
I tear myself apart, wishing me to die
Was I the one who ever hid the truth of real feelings?
Have I done nothing to be needed in your life?
Was I the one who pushed and pulled your heart till it stopped beating?
Am I the one who wants to say goodbye?
Are you the one who wants to say goodbye?
So, you say goodbye