Monsters

[Chorus]
It feels so very strange
That it could be this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why won't you stay?
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you?
This negativity keeps me feeling blue

[Verse 1]
Look, is it okay to feel like running away for days
'Til somebody wants to say something?
Is it okay to feel shitty and overwhelmed
By everything and anything coming?
Is it okay to feel like I'm not quite okay?
I've been feeling pain, make it go away
Sleep is my escape
Dreaming it up to wake up and find out it really means nothing
I made the assumption that monsters ain't under my bed
And it took me a minute to realize they're in my head
And thеy're giving me panic attacks and anxiety, I'm seeing rеd
I'm really just fed up, it feels like I'm living in hell
And I'm walking around like I'm dead
'Cause my face is just lifeless
I'm fighting for everyone, never will I be fought for in the end
I need a little bit of happiness
Why am I so inadequate?
Demons, I'm always battling, damn
They always be attacking shit and I ain't really having it
I'm always on my sadder shit, damn
I'm a motherfucking addict, I don't mean to be dramatic
No one ever really had it, gave a damn
The love that they be giving me is scared, goddamn
Come and watch me pop another fucking Xan, shit

[Chorus]
It feels so very strange
That it could feel this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why won't you stay?
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you?
This negativity, it keeps me feeling blue

[Verse 2]
I feel so blue, I always lose
I be steady trippin, got to tie my shoes
When I need you, you respond so slow
When you need me, I'm on the call like proto
I don't like to talk because I'm antisocial
You already know though, zero friends in total
I don't even smile in the motherfucking photos
That I post on the Gram 'cause I don't give a damn about shit now
I can fucking disappear and everybody lit now
I'ma sit down and take a hit now
Every now and then I take a motherfucking sip now
Glick-pow, bumping Lil Tjay
Crying in the club on my goddamn b-day
Drive too fast on the goddamn freeway
Heart is up for sale so I put it on eBay
He say, she say, they all fucking monsters
They say they're your friends but they're always imposters
The only way that I'ma prosper
Is with zero friends in my roster
Someone call a doctor
My flow's too sick, I'm off-topic
Sucker for pain but I got logic
When fake people wanna hop on my dick
And they stab my back and they talk they shit
And they talk their crap I just take they hits, damn

[Chorus]
It feels so very strange
That it could feel this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why won't you stay?
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you?
This negativity, it keeps me feeling blue

[Outro]
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