Getting Older (Recorded at Deezer HQ, Paris)

[Verse 1]
I'm gettin' older, I think I'm aging well
I wish someone had told me I'd be doin' this by myself
There's reasons that I'm thankful, there's a lot I'm grateful for
But it's different when a stranger's always waitin' at your door
Which is ironic 'cause strangers seem to want me more
Than anyone before, anyone before
Too bad they're usually deranged

[Verse 2]
Last week, I realized I crave pity
When I retell the story, I make everything sound worsе
Can't shake the feeling that I'm just bad at healing
And maybе that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed
Which is ironic 'cause when I wasn't honest
I was still bein' ignored, lyin' for attention just to get neglection
Now we're estranged

[Chorus]
Things I once enjoyed
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for
Someday, I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much until we don't

[Verse 3]
I'm gettin' older, I've got more on my shoulders
But I am getting better at admitting when I'm wrong
I'm happier than ever, at least, that's my endeavor
To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure
'Cause, to be honest, I just wish that what I promise
Would depend on what I'm given, not on his permission
It wasn't my decision to be abused

[Chorus]
Things I once enjoyed
Just keep me employed now
And things I'm longing for
Someday, I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much until we don't

[Outro]
But next week, I hope I'm somewhere laughin'
For anybody asking, I promise to be fine
I've had some trauma, did things that I didn't want to
Was too afraid to tell you, but now, I think it's time