show me something

If I loved myself a little more, I could've loved you less
If I'd known to stop the bleeding, keep the wound all patched and dressed
I could love again

Bending backwards, cutting corners just to see you once again
Nod my head and play pretend, remember to talk to my friends
I want to love again

You said I wasn't strong enough to love you
So I begged God to show me mercy
You said we weren't made to love each other
While I begged you to show me something

I walk alone, try to enjoy it, pay attention to my steps
Mindfulness and therapists banging on closed doors in my head
I want to love again

Singing songs about moving on but they're so angry and I'm sad
Like should I hate you?
I don't hate you, really I just want you back
I should rather die than have you back

You said I wasn't strong enough to love you
So I begged God to show me mercy
You said we weren't made to love each other
While I begged you to show me something

Who am I without your love?
Who am I if not in love?
Am I just another lesson you won't learn until we're done?
Who am I without your love?
Who I am if not in love?
Am I just another lesson you will use for your next one?