Need a Sign
If you ask me, since Harlem
Our family's always been like, it's been the best of times
It was the worst of time (worst)
I needed a sign
2008, my mother passes away (Aunt B)
I'm at rock bottom, Dave's with me through my mother's situation (yeah, I was)
But he's still playing basketball, he's doing his thing (yeah, I was)
Two years later he gives me a call, he's hit rock bottom (yeah, I did)
He's getting kicked out of school
He has another dream, to rap
He tells me he needs to come back to New York
And if he has this opportunity, he's gonna make it
I knew I was already struggling
I didn't even want him to come back and be in the streets
I don't want him to get in to any bullshit
We didn't really have much, you know what I mean?
We were just together, all we had was each other and his dream
I look back now
I think the sixty
That front door (penthouse)
Right by the staircase, perfect place
That back room I grew up in
He's been such and inspiration to so many
People see the grind and the pain and the struggle he's going through (right)
That we've been through (right)
But this is for everybody out there (yeah, it is)
Look and think, and dream and, everybody needs a sign (yeah, they do)
Sometimes you can't see it yourself
Need sign, you need, need some help
We know we guilty but we gon' act like we innocent (on God)
My Glock was filthy, need disinfectant to get it in
My grandpops was an immigrant, never a citizen
They expect me to vote, told my mother, I needed Ritalin
Was born crazy, I never felt like I was normal (never)
The sun shine bright after it rain, that's what the storm do
Roll a blunt and wish I could trade places with Freeky (Malik)
Until I sit and realize my daughter really need me
I had to cut ties with my closest, niggas is greedy
You can see the pain in my eyes as soon as you see me
Aladdin had me tryna make wishes, wasn't no genies
Halal if I was talkin' 'bout lambs, no Lamborghinis
We was really starvin', in my aunty crib hearin' Marvin
Had to travel the world to realize nowhere like Harlem
I tried to keep my distance from niggas that's scared of problems
Them niggas realize you food, then anywhere they'll rob her
You ever tuck in your jewelry then you don't need to shine
All the money in the world won't bring you peace of mind
All them chains don't matter, they hate to see you shine
Was lost, prayin' to God begging him like, "I need a sign"
Show me how to do it when ain't nothin' working
I just hope that I don't shoot if we meet up in person
Now they ask my feature price, they never wanted verses
Now I live a different life, can't see my mother workin'
Should I rob 'em? Should I shoot 'em? I just need a sign
You know I've been going through it, just give me a sign
I promise we all could do it, I just need some time
Should I continue with this music? Just give me a sign
Thinkin' 'bout the day when I won't need to rhyme
She tryna line me or she love me? I just need a sign
I close my eyes and pray like, "I just need a sign"
I listen to what you tell me, I can't read your mind
I need a sign, I need to blind 'em, ay
Before the diamonds
Though I've been live, I set my timing, ay
And no silver lining
They can't control me, fuck your controllers
Lost in the sofa, least I'll be moanin'
I'm taking over, fuck these emotions, all the signs
Hey, niggas calling like we homies now, nah
I bet they stop with all that trolling now, blocked
Made that rooftop into a floor for now, it's a sign
Now it's Rolls when we rollin' out, drop
Fuck a lease I gotta buy the block, block
Fuck them people there's a bottom line, no need to sign
My man died before we talked, ain't get to speak in time
Them grams had them smokers looking like a sneaker line
My little man don't wanna rumble, so he keep a 9
Not breakin' it down, keeping this pot, shit this peace of mind
I'm on my daughter, across the water, I hope she don't see no crime
There's problems, I pull up on a bike, I'm on Deebo time
I tried to ask my father to help me, told me I need to grind
Your funeral packed but you dead, can't even see the line
I hope I see the signs
It break your heart when a youngin' dying, he was 9
They say he stop but we speedin', so we don't see the sign
Feel like a war going on when all your people dyin'
Niggas is numb and they gon' act like they don't see you cryin'
You got a chance to get out of here, we don't need you ridin'
He just need a sign
Nobody keep it real with him, he tired of people lyin'
He sick of lightin' up candles, too many people dyin'
Knowin' you might get up out the hood, that shit'll keep you tryin'
I'm used to the jungle, nigga, I been a lion
Walk in the booth, kill everything, even my pen is dyin'
That shit they tried to teach in school, we ain't consider science
You a sucker if you give up, too many niggas tryin'
Pocket watchin', you focused on what your nigga buyin'
Pocket watchin', you focused on what your nigga buyin'
I need a sign, I need to blind 'em, ay
Before the diamonds
Though I've been live, I set my timing, ay
And no silver lining
They can't control me, fuck your controllers
Lost in the sofa, least I'll be moanin'
I'm taking over, fuck these emotions, all the signs
Hey, niggas calling like we homies now, nah
I bet they stop with all that trolling now, blocked
Made that rooftop into a floor for now, it's a sign
Now it's Rolls when we rollin' out, drop
Fuck a lease I gotta buy the block, block
Fuck them people there's a bottom line, no need to sign, yeah, yeah