Neoteny

lethargic as it may seem
this closure is all that we have
and the neon light on my heart is still blinking vacancy
I'm not ready to throw your tears away
I'm not believing that my mind will forget you someday,
you said I would be alright but I keep on waiting
I keep you hanging from strings of my heart that ties itself to you

I still drive the car with these automatic windows we loved so much
as we smoked our fears away
I'm still hanging on dreams of castles
and clouds and white picket fences
and you spending your life with me...

you said that I'd be alright
you said that I'd be o.k.
well I'm not and I'm miserable
and I'm drinking tonight to remember how good
it once felt back when life felt real

I'll never give you up
I'll never find love without having an answer of why
it's not attached to you