I Hoped You’d Die

[Intro]
(Pain in my brain, I just I just hope it ends)
(Raining again, let the snow descend)

[Verse]
I was sober once, baby I’m for real
I been home for months, I got time to kill
I could open up, would you like me still?
I been known to trust, and now I fight to feel
I think we’re close enough, really I can’t tell
So if I chose to love, would you provide for re-e-eal?
Barrier I set up as a defense
Scarier when head up in the deep end
Said you’d never leave
Really thought that that was decent
That’s okay with me
This shit changes with the seasons
It was never deep
Really just needed a reason why

[Bridge]
(A reason why)
(Need a reason why)

[Verse 2]
I don’t know where this could lead
In the cold air, empathy
It goes on and on, I never noticed it
And when it’s gone, it’s gone, and I get no revenge
And it gets hard to talk 'bout what I’m closing in
And it’d be hard to stop if we’re to open it
Pain in my brain, I just hope it ends
And it’s raining again, let the snow descend
Cold December
Been a snowy winter
I sniff blow when with her
Helps to hold the liquor
Said you’re no pretender
What you showed me differs
What the old me pictured
Now I know won’t fix her

[Outro]
I hope you die
I hope you lose yourself somewhere along the way
If you survive, I hope you move to hell
So we can’t talk again, talk again