What If I'm Not Ready

I ran away young
With a kite and a water gun
Looking for a fight
Pretty quick to find some
Hair tucked up in a Lakers cap
Flip the lucky in a soft pack
Smoked it last
Walking down the yellow line
G'head write your traffic ticket
I thought I was hard as fuck
I thought I was on a mission
Jump cut to the present day
Still got the same sharp tongue
Same long face
Pride
Is my problem
I know that's right
But that don't solve it
I don't like favors
I don't like debts I can't repay
I don't like making
Anything less than my own way
What if I'm not ready
What if I'm not ready
For all that I've been waiting for
Hold it all against me
Push me through the only doorway
I've been here too long by now
And that's how time runs out
On the phone with a friend
Says worry where you're going don't worry where you've been
Sounds like he's reaching out a hand
Are you reaching back to him
Maybe you're too attached to your freedom
Truth is you don't let anybody in cuz you don't like em leaving
My pride
Is my problem
I know that's right
But that don't solve it
What if I'm not ready
For all that I've been waiting for
Hold it all against me
Push me through the only doorway
I've been here too long by now
And that's how time runs out
My battle cry
Just one last time
My signal fire
This life of mine
My pride
Is my problem
My battle cry
I don't like favors
I don't like debts I can't repay
My signal fire
I don't like making anything less than my own way
For all that I've been waiting for
What if I'm not ready