Trash & Other Places You Go When You Die

I used to want to be a boy scout
Three fingers up
I'd want to say no, though I'd love to
I've obligations and such

Now I take anything 'gets passed around
Shovel it all in my mouth 'till I feel the ground
My friends complain I'm nowhere to be found

See now I want to be a gangster
With both middle fingers up
I want to rob banks
And say things
Like I don't give a Fuck

Which Scorsese movie ended up doing me wrong?
To make me want to live like it's the end of the song
I don't believe I was ever that strong

Well I want it
I want it

I'm sorry I did that
It's not something you take back

I'm sorry my friend
& I'm sorry that I'll do it again