Overthink

Damn it's late at night and I'm wide awake (wide awake)
Thinking about my life and thinking about mistakes (hey)
Thinking about the future and what the hell awaits (what awaits)
Too many thoughts that I just wanna escape
The later it gets the more my demons are amplified (in my head)
So I try to run away from where my mind currently resides (I try)
Only within the music is where I deeply confide (only)
Going around hopelessly looking for the bright side
Thoughts going so fast I feel like I'm Running Miles (don't play)
I've been hurting too much I haven't been myself in a while (in a while)
People ask how I'm doing I just try to fake a smile (fake a smile)
I try to convince myself that I'm not going in denial
Why do I fall for someone who I know I have no chance with (I know I dont)
I begin to get to know them and then I start to imagine (hey)
I try to work up enough courage so I can ask them (so I can just)
But I begin to question things and think about the outcomes
Kuz if she says yes imma treat her with respect (hey)
Imma be her shoulder to cry on and Imma be with her at her best (hey)
But if she says no I think imma just lose it (imma just)
I've already gone through so much I don't think I can do this
It took me two days to convince myself that I should tell her
So I went to look for her, it's now or never
When I saw her she was so happy and guess what happened next
I waited too long and that's something that I regret
Overthinking is just tearing at my mentality
Wondering if any of this is gonna be a reality
Always worried that imma just push her away
Questioning every move I make and word I say
Freezing up, I'm so nervous I can't even speak
The room is spinning, can't stand, my knees feel weak
Terrified of not knowing, feeling like imma crash and sink
I'm sick of being the one that always has to overthink
Damn it's late at night and I'm wide awake (wide awake)
Thinking about my life and thinking about mistakes (hey)
Thinking about things that are just making me ache (just making me)
I try to push them out of my mind I want them erased
Some nights are alright but some nights are harder (I can't take it)
I play some music and try to let my mind wander (I try)
But I think about what's happened and about what could be (what could be)
Waiting for sleep to put me out of my misery
But when I close my eyes, I'm back to when I had the chance (when I had it)
To tell her how I felt but I was stuck in a trance (I was stuck)
When she said she was single I should've told her that moment (I should've)
But I bit my tongue because I was scared I would blow it
I was scared that I would screw it all up and lose someone amazing (I was scared)
I was scared that I'd turn out to be someone she'd start hating (I was scared)
I know it sounds like this is something I was over-complicating (hey)
But every moment I had with her was always captivating
Talking to her I felt like there was nothing on the planet (there was nothing)
That could screw me over and take my joy like a bandit (nothing could)
Every second I spent with her I tried not to take for granted (I tried not to)
Showing up late to everything else became a true habit
I'm so pleased that I got a chance to know you before
The world became a mess, and when I didn't know what to stand for
You made it bearable for me and made me feel like I could soar
The only thing I regret is i didn't try to be anything more
Overthinking is just tearing at my mentality
Wondering if any of this is gonna be a reality
Always worried that imma just push her away
Questioning every move I make and word I say
Freezing up, I'm so nervous I can't even speak
The room is spinning, can't stand, my knees feel weak
Terrified of not knowing, feeling like imma crash and sink
I'm sick of being the one that always has to overthink