If I Could Love You

I didn't mean to lead you on
It's my mistake
I didn't mean to break those things
That I had made.
It's so much easier to chase the things that please
And I get lost sometimes, I hope you are lost with me.

If I could love you
It would tear me apart
If I could love you
It would break her heart.

If I could love you
It would tear me apart
If I could love you
It would break her heart.

I built a life and filled it up with love and joy
How could the builder be the one that then destroys?
I always reach for all the things I can not hold.
And like a bomb thrown in the dark,
The night explodes.

If I could love you
It would tear me apart
If I could love you
It would break her heart.

If I could love you
It would tear me apart
If I could love you
It would break her heart.

Every fire we build will soon grow cold
And things will fall apart,
The center will not hold
This thirst I'll never quench within my soul
I just want the parts that will make me whole.