Reoccurring Dream

Heaven, help me, I don't understand
Heaven, help, I'm having trouble reading you
You keep on showing up in my dream
A reoccurring one where you don't want me

And it's no surprise if
You don't understand if you're blindsided
I'd have trouble blaming you
I'm good at hiding how I feel
Always worried what you're thinking of me

And reading your mind is never
Gonna yield an answer
Why don't I learn my lesson?
Most of the time it's
Just uneducated guessing
That just leads to depression

Heaven, help, I want to understand
I don't know where to start
Getting close to you
But maybe you're not running from me
I'm always pushing people away unknowingly

And reading your mind is never
Gonna yield an answer
Why don't I learn my lesson?
Most of the time it's
Just uneducated guessing
That just leads to depression

Heaven, help me, I don't understand
Heaven, help, I'm having trouble reading you
You keep on showing up in my dream
A reoccurring one where you don't want me